On my way back from the art store with my daughter yesterday, I noticed the restaurants were reopened. People now can sit in the open air to dine. The neighbourhood streets suddenly became lively again.
When I was passing by the Italian restaurant around the corner, I was touched to see all the waitresses in beautiful white uniforms, waiting at beautifully set tables on the terrace. Their eyes lit up with excitement and anticipation. One of them was showing a group of arriving guests where to sit. What a tough year it had been for the restaurant owners! I can’t wait to dine at my favourite restaurant again!
I thought about how the year has been for our family.
At the beginning of last year, we struggled to pay the rent. I was at home with a newborn and a toddler, and my husband was searching for a job.
Then, Covid hit. The whole country went into semi-lockdown. Several job possibilities had gone. We relied on the money our parents sent for a couple of months until my husband registered a company and signed the first client.
Those were some difficult months. Yet, we had hope and peace and so many lessons to learn.
Apart from the practical learning, such as making a budget and weekly planning, I learned to lean into God when lacking clarity for the future.
As Christians, we have an advantage— a promise. We find it in Colossians 2: 6, 7: “Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him, rooted and built up in him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving.” (ESV)
We can walk in Christ Jesus because Jesus himself once claimed to be “the way, truth and life” (John 14:1). We can walk in the Way.
What does that mean? It means when we lack clarity in life, and things get complicated, we can still know where to put our foot for the next step— walk between the boundary of the path; walk in him.
And that was what I did last year. I got into God’s presence every morning, prayed and listened, read scriptures and responded in faith. I also wrote down what I felt God said to me that morning. Then, I got up from my chair and did the next thing on my schedule, moving forward with the day, centred and mindful of God’s presence and promises. His perfect and powerful love was where we belong and rooted. We would be ok.
Over a year later, we are more than ok. Not only did we lack nothing throughout the year, but we also grew much closer as a family.
Now, the vaccine is available for everyone; shops and restaurants have reopened in Geneva. Things look more or less back to normal. But I know I’m not the same as a year ago. Neither are you.
My family may no longer struggle with rent, but we are waiting for a new kind of clarity. My husband has recently passed an interview, and we are waiting for an offer from that company. It means we will most likely relocate to another country.
I have learned that life will never run out of changes. We make plans; we also have to pivot. And that’s ok. Because no matter how unpredictable our life is, we have one thing that will never change—- the Way in Christ, in which we are called to walk.
What about you, my friend? Maybe you are disheartened with a recent diagnosis of a loved one, struggling with finances, frustrated with lack of purpose, or burdened by the heavy workload of caring for your babies. While it’s ok and healthy to let out all your emotions, including fears and doubts, may I remind you, also myself, that we are not lost in the messiness of life. We have a way, a path forward even in our darkest days.
Walk in Him.