You woke up this morning, feeling tired and heavy. You’ve been feeling this way for many days. You feel stuck in a waiting room for too long.
You wait for that healing, that provision, that man of your dream.
You truly believe God can and will satisfy your desires, and you wait for Him to do just that.
You repeat the old Psalm over and over again in your heart:
“Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. “(Psalm 103:1-5)
There may be something or someone coming up to you in the waiting, but deep in your heart, you know they are not what God has for you. Though your desire is so strong and the prolonged waiting wears your down, because of the vision of your faith, you choose to wait still. You mustered up your courage, said no to all the other possibilities. You know the enemy of the best is the good.
My dear friend, you’ve done so well!
Job, too, had to live in the space of waiting for his healing, restoration, and the fresh revelation of God to come, in which he went through hell. However, his severely tested, steadfast faith eventually received its reward. He came to know God face to face. His faith moved from “doing all the right things and receiving all the blessings” to “ as long as my savior lives; it is well with me.”
So often, we do the right things because we believe we will receive something good. We think we will be blessed by doing what’s right.
But sometimes, following God and doing the right things will lead us to the unwanted wilderness of hardships. Going through trial is a kind blessing in disguise, which most of us don’t recognize in the first place.
Job cursed his birth while he was going through his trial. It was too painful to bear. He did all the right things yet still received such calamity. Even his wife asked him to “Curse God and die.” His pain was beyond words. He certainly didn’t think the catastrophe was a blessing in disguise. However, he would never have gained a new understanding of God and deepened faith in His savior if he hadn’t gone through that trial. Not only did God “blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the former part,” he was forever changed on the inside.
I’ve been there many times, in that waiting room. I waited for that physical healing, that financial provision, that visa to travel for schooling or ministry, and that man with whom I would build a family of my dream. Did I struggle in the process? Yes, every time. Did I get what I was hoping for when the waiting was over? Well, not exactly what I had envisioned but only better. In the course of trials and waiting, we are invited to come to experience more of God’s peace by continually holding up his promises before our eyes. Nothing is better than knowing the peace in His presence. And we will come out, never the same.
Dear reader, you may think that you are not quite there yet. You feel too exhausted, and you want to throw in the towel! Well, maybe you stumble upon this blog post for just that reason.
Listen, you can do this because you have a God holding you tight while you hold on in that space of waiting, the discomfort, and the pain. Find a quiet place today and pour your heart out before the Father. Tell Him all your thoughts and feelings. Know that there is no shame in whatever you feel. Your feelings are real and legit. They are welcomed in the safe arms of the Father.
These are my encouragement for you today, my friend. Life is full of transitions. We may find ourselves coming from one waiting room to another. Cheer up! For you are not alone. Many have walked the same path of faith before us. I’m on this journey with you, as well as our kind, everlasting Father.